What's In a Name?

So I've neglected my blog since I've discovered Facebook. :) However that's not the onlyreason I haven't blogged. I've had the opportunity to deal with some issues and I've had the help of many people and I thank them for all the help. I wrote a poem that represents the way I've felt.

Scars
Scars on my legs and on my arms.
Scars meant to bring me some harm.
Scars that brought me blatant pain,
For purposes to keep me sane.

Scars that remind me of days past.
That comforted me when I could not last.
Scars that faded to white and red.
Scars that released all thoughts in my head.

Scars represent the hurt I felt.
Scars were my own way I dealt
With feelings that were never allowed.
The high I put myself on my cloud.

Scars I controlled how long, how deep.
Scars overtook my mind’s keep.
But I live to say that they are wrong,
They are a fix that never lasted long.

I hate the scars that haunt my skin.
I vow that no scars will come again.
If I could turn back the time,
I would never have made these scars of mine.

Life is hard, believe me, I know. But with the help of others I've gotten to where I am today. Which doesn't mean I'll fall back a few steps, but I've come to expect that, you know, "expect the worse, hope for the best!" Life is good, its a good thing. :)